|Posted on July 29 at 12:15 am with 17 notes||Reblog|
Hey guys! Just wanted to post a quick update, since some of ya’ll saw me hop on briefly tonight and I didn’t want to leave stuff to the rumor mill or confuse anyone.
A few things:
1. I’m not back yet, I’m still on hiatus. I was mostly stopping by to make sure that whenever Treue and I do come back, the guild that we worked so hard to build over years will still belong to us. I’m not 100% sure how that whole “Transfer guild ownership from inactive guild leader” thing works but I don’t really want to be on the bad end of it, so… better safe than sorry!
2. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of your messages here on tumblr, and for the whispers in-game. You guys are wonderful and I miss you all. I’m sorry I haven’t really responded to anyone on tumblr- I’ve tried keeping up with stuff but there’s a lot and it can be kind of overwhelming and honestly to a big extent, I wasn’t really sure what to say. Thank you for your support, your concerns, and your well-wishes. It is truly humbling and encouraging.
3. I’m not ready to make a return just yet, but I’m doing okay. The time away has been very helpful and relaxing, and I’m getting stuff sorted out.
Thank you again so much for your patience.
All my love,
|Posted on May 29 at 11:50 am with 240 notes||Reblog|
For those of us who live at the shoreline
standing upon the constant edges of decision
crucial and alone
for those of us who cannot indulge
the passing dreams of choice
who love in doorways coming and going
in the hours between dawns
looking inward and outward
at once before and after
seeking a now that can breed
like bread in our children’s mouths
so their dreams will not reflect
the death of ours:
For those of us
who were imprinted with fear
like a faint line in the center of our foreheads
learning to be afraid with our mother’s milk
for by this weapon
this illusion of some safety to be found
the heavy-footed hoped to silence us
For all of us
this instant and this triumph
We were never meant to survive.
And when the sun rises we are afraid
it might not remain
when the sun sets we are afraid
it might not rise in the morning
when our stomachs are full we are afraid
when our stomachs are empty we are afraid
we may never eat again
when we are loved we are afraid
love will vanish
when we are alone we are afraid
love will never return
and when we speak we are afraid
our words will not be heard
but when we are silent
we are still afraid
So it is better to speak
we were never meant to survive.”
―Audre Lorde, The Black Unicorn: Poems
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|Posted on May 25 at 7:20 pm with 36 notes||Reblog|
I am taking a break from World of Warcraft RP for a while. This also affects PAS.
I know this is really abrupt, and I apologize for that. I would not even be making this post to draw any attention to my absence if not for the fact that I’d scheduled RP with people, or had regular weekly RPs with people, and I wanted to make sure I didn’t leave anyone guessing or just disappear without being considerate. I am deeply sorry for any inconvenience this may cause.
ICly we can just say that something major came up at Karnak and Nik is away for a while. That his clients will be informed when he returns, if they still wish his services.
I’m just dealing with some personal stuff that tends to ramp up now and then, which has made RP kind of implausible. “Implausible”, not necessarily impossible, but certainly unlikely. About 9/10 times I think about going IC, or even logging on WoW, there’s a visceral choking feeling of “NO.” Maybe one night now and then I’ll hit that 1/10 but I don’t know when and it’s certainly not enough to keep up all the commitments I’ve made.
Putting this in bold because I don’t want to leave things to rumor: This isn’t a reaction to anything. I was not involved in any fights. Withdrawing from the game actually has nothing to do with the game or the community.
I’m just really not feeling up to being around so many people or in an interactive environment right now.
Nothing cataclysmic happened IRL. Treue and I are still very much together. In fact this has happened before. You just didn’t see it when it happened because I hadn’t put myself in a position that people were regularly coming to me for RP when it happened. And I can’t stop kicking myself for that and I’m sorry but the problem with this is it isn’t predictable. I didn’t know last month. Or even last week. There really isn’t warning.
I’m “Not Well”. That’s all I really want to say about it.
Things will probably be better. Maybe next week. Or next month. Or next expack.
But for now, I can’t. And I’m so sorry. It’s not your fault. None of you. Nobody at all.
For those of you who know me on a more personal level, my skype is still open, but I may not always want to chat very much so please don’t be upset if I get quiet.
It’s not your fault.
It’s a broken gear. A glitch in the system.
It will work itself out.
This is not goodbye, this is brb.
I just don’t know how long it’s going to be.
I may still log on now and then to PvE. Maybe.
I will probably reblog stuff on this tumblr still, so I don’t forget Nik’s ‘feel’.
Writing is a definitely probably not.
That’s all there is to say. Everything’s fine, it’s just me that’s the problem, so I have to go away for a while.
All my love,
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