An inspiration, reference, and writing tumblr for Nikkitah Blightheart, blood elf death knight on Wyrmrest Accord.

Posting Style: Murder and mayhem and morning tea, moths and delicate but broken things, stags and skulls and dark echoing woods, smoke and ashes and ink on the walls, smeared paint and pain and lingering screams, hopeful notions and hurtful actions, abandoned halls and cluttered drawers, and haunted, haunted men with bright blue eyes.

This blog contains adult themes.

Posted on September 16 at 6:39 pm with 9 notes Reblog

What do you think about me? Joking. I don't really care to hear your thoughts of me. But really, why did you come back and... Do you regret it? - Fen (aka, Wildblades)

from fenoocblog


wildblades:

blightheart:

Nikkitah squinted, taking a moment to first hoist both middle fingers towards Fen with a bright, pseudo-cheerful smile before deadpanning. 

"Why did I come back, huh?  Wow.  Most people are asking me why I left but your question is a lot more revealing.  Something tells me you would have preferred I stay away.  I wonder if that has to do with your ill-fated efforts to make amends to Fisali, which I assure you I am aware of and have voiced my opinions on to her. 

Why did I come back?  I guess because I was done being away, and it felt like I was running from something.  That’s not the way that I ever want to live.  For better or for worse, I don’t really know where else to be and even when I’m supposed to be recuperating, this ugly place creeps into my thoughts. 

Do I regret it?  I don’t know.  Not really.  The city is in some ways different, and in some ways still exactly the same.  I knew what I was expecting, and that’s exactly what I got.  A strange mix of tension, anxiety, and utter doldrums.  The unique privilege of being on-guard, and yet bored to tears.  Silvermoon didn’t disappoint my expectations, but that’s only because I was expecting disappointment.  I guess there’s something to be said for consistency.” 

The rogue took a step back as Nikkitah displayed his affection for him with both middle fingers extended. A smirk spread over Fen’s lips as he arched an eyebrow. “Speaking of consistency… I suppose it’s comforting to see that some people never change. But no, my preference to you being around has less to do with Fisali, and more to do with the number of times we’ve spilt each other’s blood.” His head titled to the left, that smirk of his deepening in the process. “Hmm, but that’s all in the past, right?”

Fen waved a hand out dismissively, then looked over his shoulder for a second before turning back to focus on the death knight. “This city is more of the same. Except they have more social parties as of late. I’m sure the sheep will invite you to them soon enough. Until then, enjoy your doldrums… And do let me know when you get bored of them.” With a wink of an eye, the rogue turned to leave.

Nikkitah narrowed his eyes suspiciously, but did not call out to bid Fen to stay.  A peculiar final word, to say the least- possibly full of potential, but just as likely a matter of taunt.  He’d bide his time.



Posted on September 16 at 5:23 pm with 2 notes Reblog

"You're so mysterious... The inner workings of your mind are far beyond my comprehension so tell me, untangle a part of that jungle and tell me what you think of me."

from luovel-r


"Points for flattery, but you’re not going to enjoy this.  You’re an arrogant ass who thinks the rules don’t apply to you, and your insufferable attitude of exceptionalism makes you unsavory company.  I do not forget what happened in the Halls of Blood.  I do not forget that you threatened a woman with death just for saying something you didn’t like, then were daft enough to claim you had some kind of a right to.  I do not forget that you wasted everyone’s time trying to defend your actions, then shunned punishment for them even after you were found guilty by having your friend exploit the system under dubious circumstances.  Whatever manners you’re struggling to develop now, it was your actions then that still left the biggest impression on me.  Perhaps that will change in time, but I don’t expect much."



Posted on September 16 at 4:42 pm with 4,035 notes Reblog
My head is full of dreams and demons
-(via paranoirotica)

(Source: wnq-anonymous)



Posted on September 16 at 4:36 pm with 9 notes Reblog

What do you think about me? Joking. I don't really care to hear your thoughts of me. But really, why did you come back and... Do you regret it? - Fen (aka, Wildblades)

from fenoocblog


Nikkitah squinted, taking a moment to first hoist both middle fingers towards Fen with a bright, pseudo-cheerful smile before deadpanning. 

"Why did I come back, huh?  Wow.  Most people are asking me why I left but your question is a lot more revealing.  Something tells me you would have preferred I stay away.  I wonder if that has to do with your ill-fated efforts to make amends to Fisali, which I assure you I am aware of and have voiced my opinions on to her. 

Why did I come back?  I guess because I was done being away, and it felt like I was running from something.  That’s not the way that I ever want to live.  For better or for worse, I don’t really know where else to be and even when I’m supposed to be recuperating, this ugly place creeps into my thoughts. 

Do I regret it?  I don’t know.  Not really.  The city is in some ways different, and in some ways still exactly the same.  I knew what I was expecting, and that’s exactly what I got.  A strange mix of tension, anxiety, and utter doldrums.  The unique privilege of being on-guard, and yet bored to tears.  Silvermoon didn’t disappoint my expectations, but that’s only because I was expecting disappointment.  I guess there’s something to be said for consistency.” 



Posted on September 16 at 3:29 pm with 3 notes Reblog

I think I've asked this before, but -- Nikkitah's thoughts on Arthamir?

from tyrellia


This is a little tricky for me since it’s been a while since Nik and Arthamir interacted, so I’m stretching the limits of my faulty memory to piece out where they stand.  My apologies if this is dated.  I’m mostly using an old journal to remember their last major interaction that was written of.

Nik is somewhat annoyed with Arthamir, but he can’t really bring himself to hate the man.  He kind of comes off like an overburdened veteran of a city that’s seen a lot of shit, and so while Nik finds his behavior tiresome, he can’t really blame him for it too much.  The last interaction, written of in that journal, was in the Row after Nik and Grexan were arguing.  Arthamir had made quite a show of making it known that he didn’t like Nik, as well as openly threatened to kill him if he became a problem and spoke of how the Row was not going to return to the sort of chaos it endured during the Twitch days.  Nik retorted that if Arthamir tried to take him down in the Row, it’d be a hell of a fight since half the time Row rats will jump into fights against BKs just for the principal of it.  Arth said that if it came to a street war, it “would be crushed”.

This kind of irritated Nik because it seemed like overdramatic thug-knight tactics, but it was right after his speech at the Forum about the Row, so tensions were running high.  Nik himself also really resented how the Row got when some of the crime groups were in charge- in no small measure because he was caught in the crossfire on several occasions, sometimes literally- so he couldn’t blame Arthamir for being aggressive when it came to saying that wasn’t going to happen anymore.  Still, he came out of it with a feeling of “I would agree with you if you weren’t being such a jerk about it.”

Arthamir is the sort of person who doesn’t really seem to have much patience for Nik’s bullshit, and so Nik gets kind of conflicted feelings on him because while he generally resents people who hate him, he’s also somewhat self aware of his own bullshit.  So he gets why someone who is a proponent of law and order may not be his biggest fan.  Still, he feels like both he and Arth have bigger fish to fry, and they’d be better suited working together now and then rather than making empty threats against one another for posturing purposes.  It’s important to note however that Nik does indeed see Arthamir’s gestures as empty.  He feels like he’s too “above it all” to actually make good on anything, and is just doing the typical BK ego trip and mean-mugging at Row rats because it’s easy.  He doesn’t see him as a genuine threat.

My apologies if I’ve forgotten anything, I’m still getting into the swing of things.  x_x



Posted on September 16 at 12:19 pm with 7 notes Reblog
(Story) The Apology

lostkalaris:

The stiff brush made a soft chuffing sound as he rubbed it repeatedly across the metal. The bristles slowly removed the black false patina from the silver coated pewter and polished the metal to a high gloss. The black color remained in the carefully random scratches which gave the sinister impression that the arrowhead had been used before. The patina also lingered around the raised skull which had been cast on one side of the arrow head; the inky black film shadowed the eye sockets and nose cavity and filled in between the teeth of the upper jaw. There was no lower jaw. After making several molds, he found that he preferred the incomplete skull to a whole one.

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The details in this are just delicious.  And so intriguing, too.  I don’t even know what he’s sorry for.  O_O


#treuewriting

Posted on September 16 at 12:12 pm with 601 notes Reblog
In your absence
I learned to love you
in all the ways I failed
while you were still here.
-Pavana पवन (via aestheticintrovert)

#unrequited idol worship

Posted on September 16 at 12:10 pm with 4 notes Reblog

If you could go back in time, do something with those time dragons, I guess, and change any event in your past, just one, which one would you change and why?

from lostkalaris


"Only in my past, huh?  But there are so many poor decisions in other peoples’ lives.. ah, hell. Alright. Well.  I’d go back in time and wreck that goddamn boat.  Ashtide’s boat, the night before the Last Leave.  I’d wreck it and leave it for the fish to colonize, so he couldn’t go out and disappear, and Mother wouldn’t have been here all alone, and all the ugly, horrid shit that happened in the wake of that silence could never have taken place.  I’d put him back where he belongs and if breaking the ship wasn’t good enough, I’d break his damn legs, too.”



Posted on September 16 at 11:51 am with 5 notes Reblog

Hey, punk. Why do you keep riding my ass about "oh it's illeeeegal". It's not your rap sheet, why don't you just mind your own damn business before you get hurt.

from blightheart


lostkalaris:

And there you go again! You can’t threaten people! That’s illegal too! People gotta follow the law. Laws are like rules and without rules everything falls to chaos and stuff. And I kinda think that maybe you don’t think so good, to be honest. Like, I know people think that I don’t think so good but I didn’t plan to shoot some harmonica girl with a rocket in front of Blood Knights and Farstriders and City Guards and half a dozen witnesses. Just sayin’. See, when someone upsets me, I know that I gotta think to myself “Is whatever I do to them gonna be worth what happens to me?” Even if the only thing that happens is later I’ll feel like a jerk cause I yelled at someone and lost my temper, I still gotta ask myself if I wanna feel like a jerk.

You’re…kinda missing that part of the thinking process, I think. You’re more like “Yeah, you know what, I can’t see how this could possibly suck so I’m gonna do it and nothing bad will happen. …Prolly.” And then you do bad stuff. It’s ok, kinda. A lot of people do that. A lot of people. I think that when people get upset they don’t wanna stop and think. They’re hurt or angry or something and they don’t want to stop and clarify why they’re feeling like that. They don’t wanna walk away and leave things unresolved, they want a resolution to their feelings. They wanna feel like what they’re feeling is totally valid and maybe more than anything they wanna show the world that they’re not crying on the inside or bleeding, they’re fighting, they’re hurting other people so you better not mess with them cause they’re fearsome and’ll hurt you too.

I think that’s why you don’t stop to ask if it’s worth it, cause when it’s not worth it, that don’t feel no better. You don’t feel good for walking away, you just feel bad that you had to cause why’d they even have to go and make you hurt in the first place? I think you’d rather have bad things happen to you that make you look tough rather than let people make assumptions about why you’re walking away. Cause people are kinda stupid and like to say that if you walk away from something, instead of yelling or fighting, you’re giving up or quitting or scared. That don’t make no sense, ok? It don’t. Walking away is the grown-up thing to do and the fact that most people don’t know that is scary. …Wait…What’d you ask?



Posted on September 16 at 11:20 am with 9 notes Reblog

"Ooh, I am now very curious, Highlord. What is it that you think of me- truthfully. Don't worry I wouldn't hold anything against you, you've helped me far too much for that."

from dreaming-reli


dreaming-reli:

blightheart:

"Well.  Honestly, I don’t actually know you that well.  We obviously met in PAS, but I haven’t seen you since.  You seem like you might have a lot of potential, but people with the amount of baggage you have can usually go one of two ways.  You can either use it to grow and develop and become a better person, or you can wrap yourself in a sticky cocoon of meaningless diversions that twist you into an obnoxious effigy because the real you is too sore to be seen."

"Then I’d very much like to change that; to show you how I have been since our last visit. I’d like to fill you in on my path to recovery and just seeing you again would be nice. You helped me in more ways than I could ever express and you taught me forms of control. You helped me find my hope and myself through that dark time."

Nikkitah tilted his head with a slightly inquisitive expression, as if he wasn’t expecting to hear that.  “Very well then.  We shall see.”


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